Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Pity Party for One

I'm not great at blogging. Fact. But let's give this another try. It seems that my friends have also fallen off of the blogging bandwagon so I don't really know who will even read this... :)

A little update about what has been going on in my life...

I have possibly the SWEETEST little addition to my family. My brother and Emily welcomed sweet Vivian Kate O'Brien to our family on December 14th, 2011. She is the cutest little thing! See for yourself...

Just look at those cheeks! So kissable and cuddly... I finally got to babysit her this last weekend and we had the best time. Really, we didn't do much. I tried to be extra funny so she would laugh and show me that big gummy smile. It worked! Maybe they were out of sympathy for Aunt Rissa making a fool of herself but I'll take what I can get. She is just so cute. Obviously I can't say that enough! I probably watch her videos and look at her pics 20 times a day. And then I force all of them on my co-workers. haha Vivian is entirely too cute not to share with the world!

The second addition to my family is....OLIVER, my cat! To all of you cat haters, you can insert your rolling eyes here. BUT, this cat is unlike any cat I've ever met. First of all, he is soooo damn cute I can hardly stand it. I provided a pic as confirmation...
Second, he is the funniest little guy. He really is! He loves to play hide and seek. He will literally move the pillows around on the couch and hide under them until I start playing with him then he will jump out and start all over again. Third, he has such a great personality. He talks all of the time. Not whiney meows but more of just squeeky noises. So funny. He comes to me 99% of the time when I call him. He sleeps on my back. He is just funny. Sometimes I wish he was just a fat lazy cat but what fun would that be!?! I'd be okay with him moving out of his kitten stage because his teeth are sharp!

Sadly, that's pretty much it for any excitement. I have nothing going on personally. Still waiting to meet the "one." Doesn't really seem like that's going to happen for me. I can't even seem to meet the "one" for right now.

I am so happy for everyone in my life.... All of the new babies, new relationships, new jobs...etc. There's no way to say this without sounding like a selfish jerk but I just need something to happen for myself. I need a reason to be proud of myself or a reason to at least stop having a breakdown at random places. I'm generally a happy person but I feel like most of the time it's not authentic. Like people just expect me to be happy or funny and I can't always be that for them. I don't want to let anyone down so I just don't tell them what's really going on or how I really feel. Plus, the American response is "everything will be fine." Well sometimes things are not fine!! I have a right to a pity party every once in a while. Can't someone just be negative with me for one minute??!!?

Let's face it. I really do have a great life! I have an amazing family and a wonderful group of close friends! I just don't think they know me as well as they think they do... Or even as well as I think they should.

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