Friday, October 16, 2009

Trying Times and Big Decisions

As everyone so kindly pointed out at lunch it has been a couple weeks since I posted a blog. I feel like I have enough to share today that it warrants a new posting. It's funny to post updates on here as most of the people reading this actually hears my plans and ideas But blog, I must....

Let me start by saying that school is going to be the death of me. This semester is really kicking my rear. Partly because the classes are difficult and partly because I am a horrible student with no studying skills or attention span. Regardless, I am just trying to make it through this semester so I can start another one. A couple weeks ago I got some horrible news that it was a possibility that I wouldn't graduate December 2010 as planned because of glitch in my class schedule. I could actually see the light slipping out of the tunnel. This honestly just devastated me. If anyone has been in school as long as me then you would understand that the only way to make it through with your sanity is by sticking to your plan and not wavering from it. I want to quit everyday!! But I know how disappointed I would be in myself and I just can't do it. However, I finally got word from my advisor this week and turns out that graduating in Dec 2010 is still a very real possibility. I might not be able to have friends or any social life next year but I guess in the end it'll be worth it.

Speaking of in the end... That brings me to my post graduation plans! Some of you may know of my friend Jason (aka..Swat Jason) that I've known for a good 4 years now. Well he applied for a job with the Secret Service two years ago and has been going through that process for about 20 months now. He found out a couple weeks ago that he did get the job and will, after training for a few months in Georgia, be taking a position in the New York City field office. I am so thrilled for him. I can't even imagine what it's like to have your BIG dream fulfilled. To dream a little dream... I took him to dinner last week to say good-bye (though he says it isn't good-bye) and celebrate a little. Jason thinks that I should move to NYC after graduation. Well...I'd have to agree with him. I absolutely LOVE NYC and have wanted to live there for a very long time. So that is my goal! If I have my eyes set on something this fantastic then it will help motivate me to get things taken care of here. While I think I would be perfectly fine moving somewhere by myself, I can't imagine a better person to share that with.

I know some people probably think that it's way early to be thinking about moving after graduation when it's still over a year away. But that's me. I'm a dreamer and a planner. I like to have my life planned out and I like to dream BIG! So I move and it doesn't work out... I guess I can always move back. I would much rather take a chance on something that could be so fantastic and add so much to my already great life than just sit back and dream about what could have been. Besides, I'm the only one that can make good things happen for myself! Everyone is a critic these days and sometimes you just have to look past them. I would think that my friends and family would be thrilled that I'm taking control of my life and shooting for the stars... I will have no regrets!

I hope everyone has a great weekend!



  1. i can't wait to come and visit you!!!

    ...and to get my black market bags! ;)

  2. you know what paragraph hurts my heart! : )